5 Confessions before 2017 is out…

So, thanks to the WordPress Daily Prompt: Confess, here are my 5 confessions of 2017:

1. I’m not yet a grown up

Yes, I turned 30, my partner and I bought a house & got ourselves a puppy, but I don’t feel like a grown up yet. I’m not sure at what stage you start to feel like one but I’m not there. 2018 will present opportunities to become a human adult but for now, for the last few days of 2017, I’ll continue to prat about as normal.

2. I’m not satisfied with my diagnosis & am going to keep looking for answers

After seeing a psychologist & getting a wishy-washy response, I’m persisting. I know many of you might be thinking that the diagnosis isn’t everything. That may be true for you but not for me, not yet. I was a 32/50 for ASD but technically not Aspergers. But there are so many things I relate to, especially in this blog post by Everyday Aspie.

3. I’ve learned a lot from so many of you so thank you

I’ve been better at reading blogs in the tags they I’m interested in & realised there are so many talented & honest people around. Your beautiful writing & words are amazing to see & I salute you all. Reading your blogs, I’m learning too 🙂

4. I feel rejected by my Dad but I’m working on getting through it

A long, boring 30-year old story of someone who wasn’t here nor there for his kids who now have their own lives & are mad at him. My sister is phenomenal & just gets on with things diplomatically. Me? Not w chance. But, thinking things differently might help me to distance myself from the situation.

5. I just want to feel happier

I’m so lucky to have all the people I do & the support too. Sometimes it overwhelms me & I’d rather shut myself in a quiet room by myself. Christmas Day was fraught with anxiety, stress, panic & anger, purely because of not having alone time or time to chill. The puppy was wired for the 11hrs 23mins I was at my folks’ house. It should’ve been a day of being happy. All I wanted to do was get into bed & be quiet. I will try harder in 2018.

Any confessions from 2017?

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11 thoughts on “5 Confessions before 2017 is out…

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  2. If there’s one thing I’ve learned in my life it’s that life is a journey. I keep expecting to “arrive” but I just don’t. Can’t I just get fully cooked and then come out of the oven with a nice ‘ping!’ sound?
    Keep seeking. Be gentle with yourself. Don’t give up.
    I’m 47 and don’t feel like a grown up yet. I guess that’s okay.
    I love Everyday Aspie too – some really great reading there.

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    • Thank you for your lovely & honest comment. I think we’re in an age where we look for perfection & like you said finding when you’re cooked right 🙂 great reading & following both your blogs! 🙂

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  3. I’ve had several instances of feeling like an adult. It happened in my 20s and 30s a few times. I’m 46 now. The other day when I was driving I thought to myself, “I shouldn’t be driving. I’m just a little girl!” I kept going.

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  4. I’m enjoying your blog. As someone who shares some of your afflictions, and who has quite a few years on you, I have to say the important things that you are doing right are addressing your issues, confronting them, and actively seeking help in various ways. Even writing about them helps. I let my anxiety take over my life, and really wasted so much. I bow to your bravery!

    As for confessions, mine is that I live in my head way too much. Doing far less of that is probably my most important goal of 2018.

    Take care!

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